It's been about 3 weeks since we started on this journey, and we're feeling pretty good about it. We've finally accepted that we're plural ... Though bit of uncertainty about who said something might arise: "was that really another sysmate's thought or mine?" - that kind of thing. Overall everyone is real and yes these conversations are actually happening and we find comfort in each other's presence. We're striving to work together more intentionally. And it's helping.
We've also found a solution to the endogenic / traumagenic tension we were feeling... though apparently there are more terms for us to learn, hold on...
Actually, this is perfect, I love Pluralpedia! Our system is adaptive. To life with depression (for which we have a clinical diagnosis) and the circumstances that have contributed to it. To being neurodivergent / AuDHD. To being one project away from graduating with a Master of the Arts degree in music composition and theory! Something we've been working toward for years, finally very within our grasp...
Well, we gave The Presentation a few days ago. Now it's just a matter of (hoping nothing wonky happens in bureaucracy land and) waiting for our diploma to arrive in the mail. In the meantime we're recovering from the stress and lack of sleep from juggling work on the project with our identity explorations.
We also joined a couple of plural community servers. One is pro-endo and has a ton of channels for people to ask questions and support each other. There are also regular prompts to encourage engagement, so something is always happening. It can be a bit overwhelming at times and we're not always interested in participating, but it's where we fit in better.
The other is DID-focused and endo-neutral. We joined because its description promised we would be challenged and find real healing. It also has occasional prompts. But the real value in it so far has been learning that systems can develop to adapt to other mental disorders without being diagnosable as a dissociative disorder. (That was before we learned the term "adaptive" above.)
We might join another server or two for more variety, possibly find a better fit, we're not sure. We definitely need to make sure we're balancing our inner and outer lives, especially now that we've lost school as an attraction toward the latter. The hope is to replace it with "actually composing" and "finding paid work as a composer" - that's the dream, right?
